Moving on...

I think, finally, it all hit me over the weekend.

I was fine, honestly, I really was. It is just one of those things, nothing I did, nothing we did, just one of those things. But then it hit me, that we were going to be having a baby in March, we had heard its heart beat. Our life was moving in a new direction, we had planned changes to the house, started talking names, taking photos of my changing shape. Then it's gone, it wont be coming. That finally hit me.

Yesterday I found my mind a blank but the tears just came. My mind is still blank but I'm fine again. We are heading down to Mum's for a few days which will do us both the world of good. Lots of fresh air and the crashing waves - we go on Wednesday for a few days.

Seriously, thank you guys for being so ace. We are getting there and I wont keep being such a misery I promise - see we are almost smiling here x x

"Smile, breathe and go slowly." - Thich Nhat Hanh