I love

I went to Sally's Beauty Supply today (a local outfit)! It was a long and necessary spa day and I needed it. But, see, look, I seem to have broke a nail. Crap. But. I have, after a nice head rub and hot stones on my paws, I released my conservative values, slowly, like the way a waterfall's drips end up back where they started, and am now a decided free spirit. It nice. Something happened to me while watching television last week and certain people speak like puppets. I mad. I really mad. I felt guilt for all the horrible things I did and horrible things I said. But something else, something magical has happened. I feel like my heart has melted and I can see clearly again -- what was I thinking? I am living a Charles Dickens story. Was it the recent act of violence from the grey cat next door? The blue moon? Change of seasons approaching? I since closed down shop at the Ministry of Multiplicity. Like that. I let all my workers go with a lifetime salary so they never have to work again. And so they can all make their mud sculptures and send their kids to burrowing school. That feel good. I quit running for President because it a job that not heartfelt. It not real. I not a puppet for ideology. I cat. I want to show you all that I'm not all bad, that really, I'm not all bad. I have a heart and I love. I love little creatures and humans and I want you to love them too. Please let me prove myself again, can you see me as a nice cat and not mean one?

I not hate Max. I scared of him. I scared of him because I love him and he old and I afraid that if I get close to him I will only be more heartbroken when he has to go. That will make me sad. So I can't face it. I guess it mean but I scared of saying goodbye.