Wake up and smell the Roses!!

And i certainly did today!
For a long time now i've had stuff weighing me down, spent years brushing it under the carpet. Not dealing with it head on it's always easier, isn't it than facing up to stuff, but this year i decided to take the bull by the horns and get it sorted.
For a long time i've blamed someone else to the point of not talking to them, yesterday i suddenly realised with a little help that only if i change how i approach things then maybe her and i stand a chance!! Her being my mum!!
A lot of water has passed under the bridge, but today i made the phone call and asked her to meet up with me and just go for a walk, i don't want to get into a debate about anything i just need to just be with her and start fixing those bridges!!

I know it's gonna be a big turning point in my life with a lot of things, it's not gonna be easy by any means after all i'm bloody 40 years old and old habits are hard to break, but sometimes you just have to step back and listen to people cause i know now i'm not always right!!!

Not one to pour my heart out normally but as it's such a big revelation in my life felt it needed writing down so i can look back at it.
I'm not looking for sympathy cause for the first time in a long time i actually feel happy about seeing my mum!!!

:) X