Thinking

An evening in front of the fire watching Nativity 3 with H. Surrounded by twinkling lights and scented candles, I should feel festive but unfortunately I don’t really. I am acutely aware at Christmas of families everywhere. Mum, Dad and 2.4 children smiling and happy. I am also not foolish enough to believe the ‘picture perfect’ ideal of Christmas either. I am truly lucky to have my family here and close. And we will undoubtedly have an amazing Christmas. But there is always a part of me that feels guilty for not being able to give my boys the perfect family Christmas that my mum and dad always gave my sister and me.