Survivor

A beautifully sunny day. This primrose survived the snow and ice and was a lovely sight on a little walk I did round the top half of the village in the afternoon. I had had a major panic attack Sunday after coming back from the allotment caused by sudden weakness/ numbness in my lower back and legs. I was convinced there must be something physically wrong with me! I tried to reason with myself that I had had the usual anxiety simmering away all day and that the position I have been in to do my jigsaw had probably tweaked something! The Dr had told me I was fine! So today I was on a mission to lower my anxiety - CBT, meditation, yoga, sorting my recipe cards from my food boxes, reading, jigsaw, lots to drink and regular meals. The walk was another tactic I used and although I knew it would do me good and I wanted to be out in the sun, I was anxious the weakness would strike and I'd find myself prone on the pavement! Well although the anxiety accompanied me on the walk I didn't collapse! I even bumped into The Reader at the railway station, who was on her way to collect her son from school. So I even managed a bit of socialising! All little positive things that will help me calm my anxiety. It certainly did when the weakness struck again in the evening - I just pinged my elastic band, changed my position and told myself to just give it time and the feeling would go - which it finally did! I survived another day!