Christmas, alone?

After spending Christmas away from my love it felt a little bit weird to me. Christmas rarely means something to me as a whole, but this year I felt like a part of me was missing. I've never had this feeling before. When Buster died before my birthday I was traumatised on Christmas when he wasn't there- but this was different. It wasn't so much a traumatic feeling, but emptiness. I've never had a partner before so I've never witnessed this feeling before. I made sure that I saw him as soon as possible after Christmas and my emptiness was soon lifted.