Gaming...?

Decided to join the club and play a game today. And of course the second I want a day to myself playing my game he appears?!?!

Literally, all of these past weeks that I've wanted just a minute of his time and I get nothing then the one day I just don't care and want to be alone here he comes. 

I don't know what to do with him sometimes. I really love him but I just can't get through to him and it makes me so upset. I stopped playing my game so we could watch some things together.

I think he's noticed that I'm upset with him but he just doesn't want to act on it. I'm not sure? He knows it upsets me that everything else is more important than I am to him but he just doesn't show that he cares. Heck, he probably doesn't at this point. But I love him anyway. 

He tells me every night now for the past month that he's sorry that he didn't do anything to help tidy up and that he's sorry he spent too much time playing his stuff but then keeps doing it every night so I don't think he is sorry. I think he just doesn't want me being sad about it so he apologises to cheer me up. Well, I don't think I want to forgive him so quickly anymore. I'm just so alone and going through such a hard time I just can't keep listening to the false apologies. 

I love him but I just can't keep doing this. I'd rather he just left me alone completely if that's what he's doing.