Relax?

Well, it's April 6th. 

I am worrying like crazy about next Tuesday. I can't breathe at the thought of having to go through it alone. He's gone quiet on the subject so I don't think he's going to try getting the day off.

Maybe he has tried I don't know. He hasn't told me he tried. Maybe he's forgotten...

I wish I could forget.

Part of me knows Tuesday has to happen, but it doesn't mean I have to be okay with it. I'm so upset. I just wish he could see how hard it is for me. I wish I knew why it bothers me so much. I wish I could make it stop.

I decided to take a relaxing bath to calm myself down and it's worked for now. I just hope it lasts...