Here comes trouble..!

The top picture is Bertie looking super cute in the dungarees I bought him from the South of England show last year. I was heavily, heavily pregnant & everyone was a bit edgy..
The second picture is Mummy looking nearly human with Bertie in his sling.
The final pic is Bertie pulling himself up to standing!!!!!! Omg!
We went to see Lena the childminder again today. Bertie is starting Monday!! It will be a short day at first, 9:30-2:30 & then if he’s ok, after a while, I’ll extend. He’s also doing 4 hrs Thursday...I won’t be working - those hours will be all mine!!!
I feel so mixed. Half excited & half distraught. A stranger looking after my little baby boy?? She’s great with him, has all the qualifications & good Ofsted report & B will be with just one other little boy - 2yr old Stanley. I’m sure he’ll love being with another child. It just feels hard :((