I’m annoyed at myself...I put myself in a position that I’ve spent years avoiding and I should have known better. I feel like I’m in sixth year and bill smith has just sent me home in mr. cordiner’s car to get a piece of work that I thought was shit to submit because I’ve been put off so much that I’ve clammed up and produced nothing else. and even that piece was under some shoes in the hall cupboard...

I need to reign myself in and get back the stuff I do normally and have full control over...and just enjoy that.

this was one of the crabs from saturday.