Someone Else's....

blossom tree! Snapped this of my sister's tree on our way back from walking Little B. 

Getting warmer! 

I drove to Guildford this afternoon in search of workwear. I tried three car parks and they were all full, so I turned around and drove home. All wasn't lost, as I enjoyed the drive and peace as it takes me through a wooded and very pretty, windy road. I loved listening to my music and getting lost in my own thoughts.

Lucy was visiting and I was pleased to see her. When I got home they were all sitting on the conservatory step. She was a little bit bossy today, trying to push all the adults out of the garden chairs! She loves wearing her pink wellies, and held my hands and jumped about on the step. I sang to her whilst she jumped and smiled " Lucy's got her boots on, hip,hip,hip hooray, oh Lucy's got her boots on and she's coming out to play!".

I think it went down well. 

My heart swells as I watch her and play with her, yet at the same time it makes me feel low. How can something you dreaded bring you so much joy and yet still cause you so much pain? 

My sister (her mom) and I aren't close any more. I'm a little sad about that, but I remind myself that I'm showing up for Lucy. I hope she remembers the times we spent together in the years to come. 

After all, I won't let just anyone stand on my legs in muddy boots and jump up and down ;-)