Weary Wednesday

I've felt a bit bleugh today. Horrible monthly curse! I'm used to it, but it was manageable with pains meds etc. The children were pretty awful today! I wondered if whether they picked up that I was a little off my game and that might have been why, but when my lovely TA, P came in after lunch, we had more of the same, and at the end of the day, she admitted that on days like this she wonders if she's any good at this either! I told her it wasn't us, it was them today, and tomorrow is another day. Even if by the end of today I wanted to scream into a pillow! 

I wanted to go to dance class this evening because my teacher, S was teaching it instead of the usual crew. But in the end I just had a lazy evening and talked on the phone to my friend S for bit.

Part of me looks forward to calling, the other part of me dreads it. I don't know why. I think maybe it's taken its toll this year, but I know I would hate it if people turned their backs on me just because things got tough. 

She had a coffee date with our boss yesterday, who hadn't clapped eyes on her since she walked out of our classroom back in November! I wasn't sure it was even going to happen, fearing she'd get a school emergency and not be able to go, but she did and I'm glad. We touched base when she got back, and I asked her if she was shocked to see S looking the way she does. She said no, but only because T and I had prepared her so well and she knew just what to expect. 

S told me that it went well too, and she felt she was very understanding and sympathetic to the fact that she won't be rushing back yet. The plan is to hopefully get her to pop in and begin to make contact with the staff, a pretty daunting task, and to say hi to our class before the summer holidays. 

S said she was singing my praises, and and said how well I'd coped this year. I chuckled, as things are a lot better now, but yet she spent a large portion of last year trying to fire me ;-)

I went to college last night and felt truly overwhelmed with the paperwork side, despite the good session!