Rocket ship !

When I look at a photo, I always know what we did that day, how the Wildlings were, just the... you know what you've been up too etc. This photo was taken yesterday morning, the Wildlings were going to space in their rocket ship. For me ; this was the better part of our day.

Yesterday really wasn't a good day for our eldest wildling. He struggled 90% of the day . With autism it's so hard to tell what is actually going on in his mind. He is a intelligent wee guy, has fantastic vocabulary but can't tell you why he's feeling the way that he is.
Yesterday was mostly a day spent in meltdown mode. Now meltdowns aren't just temper tantrums. A tantrum can be fixed so easily. A meltdown can last for hour's. And then when you think it's finally stopped and you go to speak to him, he can freak back out because it's not the right time.
He has something called PDA traits. ( Pathological demand avoidance) so a simple demand like " let's get dressed, or brush your teeth " can be so difficult for him to process. When he's anxious or on the edge, he will try and control a situation. And try and be the one in charge, he will bargain with you. He's not just a child that wants to get his own way, we've had people tell us this. People that are close to us. " Oh he just wants what he wants and that's all there is too it. You can't blame his autism, he intelligent"

As a parent, I feel judged enough from outsiders that I really struggle when people who are close to us just don't get it. Sheesh I struggle to understand some day's, but I don't judge.

Yesterday I felt like a awful mum, one of those day's where you have a good old cry about everything. Today is a different day. Today we start afresh.