potsdam

on saturday spencer and i went to potsdam. a city right outside of berlin. it was a really good day. ive often wanted to travel with someone like him. neither of us had any expectations and just enjoyed wandering through the city. it was nice to not feel responsible for his enjoyment or feeling pressure to ?see everything.? this is a lot of the reason why i didn?t leave berlin the whole time i was here. i am still worn out from traveling 2 years ago. i don?t like all the pressure of seeing things. i just want to exist and enjoy. next time i travel i want to do south america. i just want to go and behold the beauty of nature. i am thankful that i saw much of europe and its cultural and historical heritage, but its exhausting to see all that. and exhausting to be a tourist. i am so glad i am not a tourist here.

after potsdam i was very tired from walking an endless number of kilometers but we were having a party at our flat. the good news is at the party i could understand a lot of the german that was being spoken. the bad news is, this is precisely the time in my german learning that i should be living in a german speaking country. i think if i were to stay now i would learn a lot quickly. damn. after a while the party dwindled down to me and a select few. this was the most fun. it made me incredibly sad to be leaving. these people bring such joy to my life. its such a different existence here and i know that i will never experience it again. i also know that i do not cling to things and so once i am gone it will all be like a haze. its really too bad. but i couldn?t be more thankful for my time here.