Learning Style and Interests

Learning has always fluctuated and changed for me. From elementary school to middle school to freshman year to senior year,  I have realized and accepted how I differ from most students in a school setting. My academic folders and notebooks have to be organized in a specific way such as all my classes have specific colors for folders and notebooks that were assigned to them in 6th grade and have not changed. I only use composition notebooks because spirals on other notebooks twist and come apart which is distracting to me. Colors are also a really big part of how I study and learn because I can see the material easier. I color coat all my notes and study guides so the words pop out easier because too much reading and focusing is really difficult for me.
When I was younger, I ignored and denied my learning disabilities and made myself work harder than everyone else did, but still got discouraged when my grades weren’t up to par with my peers. I would have grave amounts of anxiety going to school because I constantly told myself I would never be good enough. I compared myself constantly until I finally got my diagnosis, and then everything finally made sense, but I was still in denial and embarrassed that I had a 504 for certain accommodations to help me succeed. 
Going into junior and senior year, I utilized my accommodations and worked harder to figure out a different way of studying that worked for me rather than working harder to study like everyone else.  My learning style has definitely shaped my understanding of other people’s stress and the pressure they put on themselves which helps me to learn even more about myself. 
Numbers aren’t my “thing.” I do not enjoy solving for x or making up my own equation, it takes me a lot longer than the average person. However, subjects like english, languages, and arts seem to come naturally to me. Although seeing the bigger picture and connecting themes takes me a considerable amount of time, the process of getting to that conclusion is almost fun. Seeing the different pathways a story, a film, or an art piece takes and trying to analyse why the character or artist made a certain move makes me analyze myself and my own actions.