Gym return

Strange day. Had a massive lie in with both A and B. Got up and littered and played. They got tired so we all went back to bed??? R came back and I headed off to the gym. First time in a loooonnnng time. I have forgotten so much stuff. It felt quite daunting. Georgia has gone up north now so no real mentor there. Will see how we go. I was struck by the change in lighting and the fact that it felt so much different because it was so wonderful and where I met R. Now it feels just....hmmmmmm
Came home to cook dinner and discuss budgets for a very large mortgage. Makes me feel sick.