Reality

Since last November when I was admitted to hospital because of my dodgy kidneys, none of it has seemed real.

I spent a fortnight in hospital while they measured liquids in and liquids, you get my meaning, blood pressure, too blood, and did a kidney biopsy. Since then, they've done nothing but taken more blood.

I've felt a fraud. I don't feel Ill. I've got other medical problems which affect my daily life a lot more. I had another visit to see my renal consultant this morning, and tomorrow I meet the surgeon who is going to be inserting a catheter into my stomach soon so that I can be hooked up to the dialysis machine.

It's starting to get real now.