Confused!!!!!

Not sure if it better to write it or not. I want to keep it, my deepest thoughts from people around me.  I don't want to express myself, I don't want to open up but I want to be understood. That's strange and I know. I am strange.  Reading my journal and notes... it was nice and it was sad. I don't know what to make of it....

Today is a very foggy day, was waiting for it to clear up but don't see it happening soon...