fire 09

tonight was a night of fireworks...literally and figuratively...

as part of our town's celebration, fireworks lit up the night sky....:p the sad part was that, i was feeling a little bit down while watching the display...a few minutes prior to the loud bangs and whistles, my parents and i had a squabble over my studies, which for me, was a little bit unfair...what hurt me the most was the fact that they didn't know how hard it actually was to do that certain thing we were fighting over, and yet, they were talking as if they knew all about it...it's just hard for me to live up to their expectations all the time...and to make matters worse, i have been striving to be at par with their standards. i have for the past years, and to hear their condescending, accusing, and angry tones was just so hurtful. like all the work i've been doing for the past years suddenly evaporated out of thin air and the only thing stuck in their minds was that i failed majorly on this one...which actually sucks...it's just hard...i guess no matter how hard i try, i'll never be enough.

as the fireworks finishes, the last of my tears also come to an end...for now...