Neon

I went to look at some new-build show homes in Hook on Sunday. M and D came too. I'm always easily swayed by everything being shiny and new, but the layout and space are quite attractive and better than I've currently got. Now to decide what/how/if to proceed. 

I've lived in limbo for the last few years, and it think it might really be 'make-your-mind-up' time. I think it might be best to sell, bank the money and save/wait, while I clear the tiny amount of debt I've got, and then look to buy something else. I don't really want to move away, but I don't think I'll find something as nice around here. Part of me want to wait and see if a relationship really develops between K and I, and then maybe I wouldn't have to buy somewhere by myself again. But it may not, and I felt a little bit 'advised' by my therapist not to consider anyone else/potential partner and focus on me..... That made me a bit sad, as I guess that's what I've done thus far but it's not made me very happy! It would be scary to sell my house and not have the security of owning a property, but I think I might have to go backwards in order to go forwards?

I've got to drop a day at work to do my course, which worries me about finances, so in a way it would be a good time to do it. In two years (if I make it through) I would be qualified and would want to set up my own private practice at some point, but I couldn't build a cabin in my front garden currently. 

So many things to think about..... my mind is in chaos!