willpower fatigue

There are some articles on this or "quarantine fatigue" or "behavior fatigue." The enemy is invisible and random and we don't do well with either. We are good at rationalizing. 

The wedding planning meeting was in the barn where they'll get married if the weather is bad and they can't have the ceremony outside. At the wedding planning meeting people were wearing masks but they were sitting too close and the windows and doors were not open. I pushed my chair back, and then pushed it back again, and then a third time. Then I got up and walked around and then I left the building. After we were all through and walking around the grounds there were three vultures flying very low overhead. 

The groom's mother is a retired nurse and his father is a scientist and they are visiting with family members who have not been quarantining and eating inside restaurants. They are bored and lonely and they are persuading themselves of what they want to believe. 

I am guessing that it is like telling yourself that you won't get pregnant because you only had unprotected sex once and you were so careful all the other times. 

I rationalize that I'll be ok because everyone was wearing masks but if the weather is bad the day of the wedding I'll want the doors on both sides open. I guess if they don't I can shoot from the open door. 

Be careful, I like you and I don't want to lose you, and I'll do my best to be careful too.