Birthday.....

My mum's :-) We tried to make it special, but after an ok start, the rain swept in and it made for a depressing day. 

I'm so tired, it feels like a form of torture having to get up every morning in the dark. Yesterday it was a beautiful, sunny afternoon, and I had two viewings after school. I was optimistic as the lady really wanted to come back again with her daughter, but today she's decided the garden isn't enclosed, and that's an issue with her having a dog. The man was an investment buyer and offered another cheeky (low) offer... apparently he's going to come back to them with a better one, but I think the likelihood is slim as buy to let usually means trying to get something for nothing! 

A bit disappointing as I feel like I'm never going to be able to sell and move on. 

I had to email my tutors this week to tell them who my therapist is, and await their approval. I received an email to tell me that because she also teaches at the college, it is a policy that cannot be changed, and that I need to seek another. Upset and very confused, as it seems to be a 'policy' that my therapist nor her colleague who interviewed me have never heard of. I had a very depressing session last night, trying to work out what to do. I feel really wobbly, as I can't start again with someone new- after a whole year, it feels like we've gotten to a place where the real work can happen.

I've asked to talk to them on Friday when I'm in, but dreading it. I will fight to the death on this one, but I'm not sure I'm going to 'win'- not sure that's the right word. 

To top off the unsettled feelings, my boss uttered the dreaded words "can we have a chat?" which sent me scurrying home as fast as I could. Just those words, delivered with a smile, send me into a spin, as it's never good.I can't think of anything I've done, but I'm sure I'll soon be enlightened. On a serious note, I immediately developed a stonking headache, my hands started to shake and I needed to go to the toilet. I can't face any more drama. School is hard going right now, and not much fun.