Achievement Despite Rejection

Today I found out I that I was rejected from Cornell University.

I knew this was coming. I repeated the inevitable fact over and over in my head. And yet, I can not deny that formal rejection when the news had life changing potential, is extraordinarily painful. A feeling of the gut and soul.

Here on my about page I talk about how this process, college applications and high school consumes me and how this community is my escape. It is truly remarkable how this online platform evolves into a true compassionate community. A good friend of mine cheered me up as well, updating his facebook status with the following message:[quote]Rejected from Harvard. Ivy League can suck it, kiss it, or do whatever the hell it wants to it. When I'm someone important I will look down on them and laugh.[/quote]

I'm joining him on that one.

Yes, it's crude but it's a beautifully crafted response and the proper position to the issues discussed in yesterday's blip. At least for now.

It is not the way I hoped to end the college application process. Well, I still have to make a decision. I need to decide whether I should/could take $150,000 or so in loans and convince myself and my parents that it is the right decision.

Amid all this, there is some achievement. My work ethic is damaged but I am still alive. I was accepted to incredible institutions, offered a total of $100,000 in scholarships, and in trying to attain the unattainable, I pushed myself to carry out rewarding responsibilities. Plus, I finally did it: I went a month without missing a single day on blipfoto. The first time after 2 months short of 2 years.

Constructive criticism is always appreciated.