I've been thinking about what my husband told me a few months ago: 

"27-year old Teyen can't judge what 20-year-old Teyen did... because 27-year old Teyen already went through a few more years of life and grew." 

I don't know what it is with me and social media, but I love looking at my past posts, pictures, and friendships. 

Did I really say that?
Why did you respond like that, 22-year old Teyen? 
What was with my hair that year?! 

I'll look up friends I suddenly remember and see how they're doing. 

Ah, they got married. 
Oh, unfriended me. 
Were we that close? 








Why I look though... is because "I wish". 

I wish I didn't do that. 
I wish I treasured that more. 
I wish I accepted that. 


I wish. 




I used to be really hard on myself for my past mistakes, but my husband's words really struck something inside of me that day. That yes, I need to forgive my past mistakes more. Let go. Forgive. 

Everyone was and still is growing and learning, no matter how old. 

Plus, I bet the majority of the people that knew 20-year old Teyen don't remember ALL of her awkward and awful moments. Ha. 




So I've been trying to treasure the now more. 
Even during these COVID days. 



That we have a safe and warm home. 
Our son is healthy. 
I may not be making much through tutoring, but I have a job and my husband still has a job. 
We have food on our table for every meal. 
Loving family members. 
Loving neighbors. 
Loving friends. 




Let go of the past. 
Enjoy today. 
Dream about tomorrow.