Daddy and I , my favourite photo of us.

Today was his birthday. It's been 5 years since he died and I miss him more than ever, especially as I now have Baby. I would give anything to have him hold Baby and see then together for just a few moments.

He watched me be born and I held him as he died. It was a privilege and honour to call him my father, but I feel the circle of life is missing a bit because he can never hold or see my gorgeous happy Baby.

I'm crying as I write this , the first tears since his sister my beloved aunt died in July. I miss my tiny family, I only have Mom and Baby now and it feels very lonely.