the sun also rises

We were at the track until 11pm, and it was crazy chaos, utter insanity, hellishly maddening, and fantastically thrilling. I love my job SO much, even when it scares the ever-loving heck out of me, especially because it scares the ever-loving heck out of me every single day. I am filled with alternating bouts of self doubt and extreme confidence, and it all balances out. If it were balanced in a middle-of-the-road all the time way, I'd be bored to death. I'm so at peace in so many ways that it bleeds into other areas of my life and I have intense moments of clarity, and for that I am immensely grateful.