My beautiful friend Caspar went to the vets today to have his teeth cleaned. But the vet rang his mum at work and said they had found a large tumour in his throat and the decision was taken not to wake him up. 

I just can't believe he's gone - although we'd all noticed he has slowed down recently, he's not a spring chicken so we just put it down to age and warm weather. I had no idea he was that ill. I'm going to miss him so much. He used to sit up front with me and put his paw on my arm for biscuits every time I changed gear. I really loved him. I wish I'd known that Monday was the last time I was going to see him. I would have sat on the floor with him and given him a big cuddle and as many gravy bones as he could eat. But I know he knew how much I loved him. I won't ever forget him :0( 

Heartbroken. Life feels really sad right now.