Sycamore leaf

This tree is producing wonderful red tinted leaves. I feel I'm standing on the edge of failure. Either my brain chemistry has failed or I have failed. I set myself the task of driving to Dunbar on Monday, and after an overnight stay, on to York. I was fine and up for it in the middle of the week, but now I'm not. I can't see myself doing it. When I'm anxious I make silly mistakes. I have to be at the top of my game, and I'm far from that. I know you will all encourage me, but I do think it's brain chemistry. For me it's like having the flu or covid. You are disabled. You can't do it.