reflections

slow day. almost everything is done - one final tomorrow and then that's it, over. 3 weeks from saturday and i'll be leaving for DC.

but today: the rain.

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i've done a year of grad school now and i'm almost positive i would never do this again. i'm glad i came, because i have learned many things and met many people, one of whom has had a deep and lasting effect on my life and will continue to do so. but grad school has come at the expense of my health, honestly, and maybe also my sanity.

this semester especially, i'm not sure where to start on that, because no good semester starts with your roommate getting cancer again. but that's where this one did and i don't think i ever got over it. i also had a horrible stomach virus in early january, and i don't think i've recovered from the effects of that either. i've gotten multiple colds, and i never get to workout regularly. egh.

i guess this is why i'm so ready for the summer; it feels like freedom. i don't know why they make academia like a prison, i'm sure other people disagree but i think it is a stifling environment, a place where you lose hope in yourself, where you can lose integrity and creativity and so much else to the relentless, pointless slog they put you through. again: egh, whatever.

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anyway, what with my impending release from the gulag tomorrow i am hoping i really will return to giving a shit about this photoblog, being inspired about the beauty of life, and not being sick anymore.

cheers to that, bros.