The end of another week…

Just a selfie of me at about 1.20pm today after a morning of trying to get a district nurse out to change my dressing. I had hoped to take a better picture to post, something more cheerful but I couldn’t make it over the door. I was too frightened of falling outside.

After much back and forward, I managed to get a district nurse out who changed the dressing (as the one on Tuesday had advised) and she will be back on Tuesday. I think she saw how low I am. I still can’t put weight on my right foot and the walking stick is helping a bit. Taking paracetamol every four hours but it’s not doing much and I can’t take any other painkillers due to my asthma and IBS so going to have to stay strong.

I’ve been in touch with some health services today and hoping for some support over the weekend as I am at crisis point - I feel broken, physically, mentally and emotionally and the burn wound on top is causing me exceptional pain. I’m hoping the services I have approached can collect my fibro meds for me and bring me a shower seat as I was too stubborn to ask for one before - I have learnt my lesson. 

I haven’t showered since Sunday morning (before the scalding incident) and am desperate for a proper wash and a hair wash. I’ve done my best to wash over the sink but am struggling and dropping things all the time. My fibromyalgia pain is up flared yet again due to the damp weather and the stress.

I slept for two hours this afternoon but woke up achey and I refreshed. I didn’t get to sleep until after 2am. The nurse has told me to rest as much as possible. Going to the loo is like climbing Mount Everest at the moment, even with the aid of the stick.

I might not post over the weekend, I feel like I have nothing positive to say right now and I feel very depressed and alone and don’t want to put a damper on your weekend. I don’t expect I will find anything cheerful to photograph either. I will catch up with stars, comments and hearts though.

The only thing that is keeping my spirits up is the thought of getting the intensive physio from the Pain Clinic, getting the pain consultant appointment and moving home into a flat better suited to my health needs. 

I am even considering moving outwith Dumfries and Galloway but I am worried that would hold me back from getting Pain Clinic support. If I could get a job as soon as my fibro was properly managed, that would be my dream. Full independence is my goal and I am determined enough to do it.

I hope you all have a lovely weekend. Thanks for all your lovely comments, stars and hearts :) xx