CFW 2013

Picture taken on Thursday.
Blog written on May 17, 2013.

Man... in one week, too many things have happened. Reconciliations, deeper friendships, re-commitments, and falling in love again. No words can describe how grateful I am of this second family and no words on this earth can describe God even more.

During our second to last night of the retreat, I decided to share a bit of my heart from my journal with the chapter by reading this poem to them. Even now that I'm back at home, my own words still lingers in my mind but my perspective has changed. God is bigger. God is stronger. No fears will ever tie me down.

Am I still being like
Jonah?
The one that runs in
fear and doubts,
unable to see your
feet in
BRONZE,
the solid foundation.
The King who knows my deepest
secrets
lies
crevices of
darkness.

Yet still loves me.

Speak.
But do I listen?
Love.
But do I hold?
Forgive.
But do I accept?

Yet still loves me.

Am I still being like
Peter?
The one who
betrayed with words
before the mercies
arrived.
A heart of
philia love and yet

He who reaches out to me.

Your servant may not be
perfect
in your eyes,
but whatever amount of love
I have with in
ME,
I will use to
serve.

Even when death may be
knocking
on
my
door.