A Special Day

Birthdays are special, aren't they

16.04.2014
I came home to one of the worst news I've ever heard. 
My grandfather passed away on my birthday
And that broke me
Every birthday, we always had an idea of what to do to make it memorable, and that one special day made my birthday somewhat less important to myself
In our culture, we usually have a family gathering or a celebration of some kind to memorialize loved ones, and having both that and my birthday on the same day messed up my brain chemistry

16.04.2023
I woke up at 8 AM with a gift at my door
I spent the first few hours of that day in bliss as I bring it inside
I received a message from my family telling me how much they missed me and I cried
I cried
This year, once again
I spent the day crying
Just because I couldn't be there with everyone
And all they wanted was for me to spend the day having fun with my friends

It is always a special day
A special day for me