My boys...

Today was rough - woke up early, went to pick up Jess (Kenny's brother), went to Allen and Tara's house to pick up a few things for them, then drove a long long time, well, Jess drove. He looked very nice - Jess doesnt dress up at all, but he did today.

We were both a little apprehensive about the funeral for Tara's brother - both felt it was too soon since Kenny's funeral. We were both pretty much right. Tara was a holding up pretty well, Allen was trying to hold back his tears, everyone else in their family was a mess. Jess had a rough time - he grabbed a hold of my hand and didnt let go. It was hard.

Afterwards we werent out to get some fresh air - made each other laugh. We were in a small small country town, lots of entertainment around! Allen, Jess, and I decided to go out and snap a few photos - kick back and relax a little. Allen is very much into photography, always asking me for tips. He needed to get away and smile a bit. We talked - he is very upset about his grandfather passing away, but he was trying to be strong for Tara at the same time.

Jess and I drove back pretty late. I did get a chance to see his parents. That was nice. They've been doing OK since Kenny passed away, it's almost going on three months. They finally got the autopsy report back...pretty brutal. Kenny had two things in his blood - caffeine (he drank a lot of soda) and cocoa, forgot what the chemical name for it was that was on the report. Kenny ate a lot of chocolate - he was worse than I am! Cause of death, besides every bone in his body being broken, was his heart, it just bursted. It was for insurance purposes I guess - being St Patricks day and all, everyone assumed he had been drinking. Kenny never drank on St Pattys day...just to be different.

Ended the night with a late dinner - Jess and I went out and met up w/ Troy. He's doing pretty well too - I was glad to see him...been worried about him. Long day...emotionally draining but Jess and I got through it. I've really discovered who my true friends are during the last few months...and these two guys right here are the real deal...we've been through hell and back, but we are getting back on track...slowly but surely. We all still miss Kenny...so very much.

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A year ago...my favorite barn...