Tuesday

When I woke the first thing I thought of was yesterday's appt. I feel worried, scared and upset. 
I had breakfast and decided it was going to be a pj day, I felt so low I had no desire to do anything. 
Did a bit of jigsaw, cried, read my book, cried, watched a bit of tv. I can not help what I am feeling or thinking, I don't want it to be effecting me like it is but I don't know how to stop that happening. 
So it has been blood and tears today.