Sunlight

I was a bit early for my session tonight so had a wander round the area, some very nice big houses and high walls.

A lengthy session; a bit of a chat before starting the EMDR , resulting in me telling H about the physical symptoms I've had. She said right away anxiety/panic attacks. We talked about my mood and what led up to it and maybe medication could be a help.

A full on range of emotions again tonight.; anger, sadness, detachment, unfocused, and helplessness. The physical symptoms also. As we finished EMDR the tightness in my chest, heart racing and pain escalated, worse than I ever had. Could hardly breathe. Was a bit scary.
H talked me through breathing properly and eventually felt better. Felt so lightheaded afterwards .

I have such a pain in my chest tonight, I am trying so hard to breathe properly and I can't stop crying. What a mess!

Only 2 more sessions to go, the court is only going to fund a total of 8.