The Pond - A Return Visit

Plans blown for the second Friday afternoon in a row. This time it was an email from the solicitor to say I hadn’t paid a bill which I was convinced I’d settled ages ago, so I had to spring into action to sort that instead of going out with friends. I’m getting quite forgetful and lacking in focus recently, and am wondering if all the trauma surrounding Mum’s death just over a year ago is finally coming to the surface. I’m certainly feeling a bit out of control, under pressure and panicky at the moment. The past months have been quite a strain as I try to build a new life after losing Mum, but keep being held back by unavoidable demands on my time and energy. I have suffered from a delayed reaction twice before after traumatic life events, so it could well be happening again.

Anyway, once today’s issue was resolved I did my usual thing to calm down by sitting quietly alongside the village pond listening to the ducks quacking for a while. Hoping for a hassle-free weekend when I can read my book in peace.