Hang in there.....

is what I am supposed to do in the light of the latest events.

While I am dangling, I remember to remember that you/I (as the very wise man said) can only lose what you/I are clinging to. 

Part of the not clinging process was,)huge  thanks to blip and blip people) to actually get the real camera out and start looking for inspiring ,  mind boggling beauty in the garden.

There was plenty of it too, even though I was only able to capture some of it. The rest went straight into my brain and sorted  it out.

Having said all this, I will tell you what happened. 

I trekked up to tthe station, hoping to see L and waited. 

He arrived with five or so minutes to spare. 
I walked up to him, not knowing what to expect, but needing to look at him face to face.
It was over in less that ten seconds.
I faced him and looked into his eyes.
He gave me a cold, expressionless stare.
I said, I am troubling you. 
He replied, not now, I have to go to university. 
Ok, I said, blew him a kiss, turned around and walked home.

And that is that.

Let go.

Done :)