Pointing out

This morning I first met with Christine the counsellor and we had a good session this morning. Next was a chat with my long time friend Song who is based in Shenzhen, China. Song has been selected for an INFORMS conference in Seattle for the coming year or this year (not entirely sure). He is also getting married in September so is quite excited for it, and he and his current partner are moving into a new flat soon. So, we decided to speak next after the flat movement has happened.

At the dance class, since I am replacing a person on Thursday I spent a lot of time just seeing the formations and not practicing the steps. I did personally see it as a wastage of time. When I got the opportunity to finally practice, I felt that people had lost the patience with me doing some of the steps and formations right esp when they had been practicing for over an hour. I felt a little let down. Next, one of the girls pointed out that I am not doing the steps correctly and she will help me figure it out. I did appreciate then feedback however it made me feel nervous. A lot of people passed by looking and not wishing good byes when this was being done. It upset me. The only one who messaged me after seeing my anxiety was our teacher Jen, who is the kindest person I have met. She said you know the choreo, don’t feel anxious in summary and keep listening to the music and registering steps and formation in your head. She also made recording of the steps that the girl from the class was teaching and it made me laugh as it featured her son Oren making funny faces. I laughed a bit and it de stressed me. Jen has been so helpful and kind to me since I have joined Bhangra that I can’t express in words. The kind of care and support she provides to me makes me feel safe even when I am silly with the steps.