Many hours on the phone to my sister with various family worries and concerns. 
I wondered if I should go out and spend some time with my niece to gauge things. It’s so difficult from a distance at times like this, 
Or my brother to see how he’s getting on in amongst all that’s happening and the impact on his family. 
In the end neither. 
Being on my own seems to make the compass spin. 
With no grounding or anchor, and briefly released from the constraints and regulation of work, oscillation and gyration takes over. 
My brain feels like this mostly.