Friday

My first thought on waking this morning was of yesterday's news from my therapist. It's hitting me hard. 
Had breakfast and headed to the supermarket. 
The sun was shining was determined to make the most of it and try and distract myself. I made a mug of tea with my nice tea bags and put some banana chips (which I 've got rather addicted to in the past weeks) in a tub and headed to the park. Got a chunk of my book read before I started thinking. About what I need out of therapy in the last few months, and where I am going in life (nowhere). All rather emotional, as I just don't know and very often wish I wasn't here anymore. 
Home to not know what to do.