Fear

My biggest fear with this dying business is dying gasping for breath.    But experimenting with these tiny doses of of morphine (and lorazepam) with direction from my Dr. KIldare today and  the palliative care nurse has reassured me it will work (altho she wondered if I could get myself in to the appointment.  I could.   Does make me sleepy.     Feel better about the meds.    Almost good at times. :-)   Have hopes to get through Christmas now, very low key.    MIght see kids and cookies this week…..

There’s more angels here  in the building.   Our next door neighbor puts this up every year.   We originally painted the trees on the wall during covid, out of boredom. 

And I thought I’d put last night’s hostess, Mary, taken last night, in the extra as she really is extraordinary.   (As is her husband Jess..how about those green shoes)) She brought more food this morning..dessert and chocolate tipped fruit…. and there was so much mac and cheese and crab, we will have it again!!!    The group was so sweet…there was a video and a message from each of them for us.     Several angels there!

And Dianne, the angel knitter is sending progress photos!!