HELLO

First of all I would like to wish all of you all the very best for the forthcoming year.

Then I would like to apologise for not having been here for a couple of weeks.  I have missed you all though.

On the afternoon of Christmas Eve I was diagnosed with early Breast Cancer.  With suffering from anxiety anyway this kicked in big time.  I cancelled everything as I couldn't face Christmas at all.

I have seen my CNS in Lancaster.  Because it's early I'm advised it's very treatable but I do have surgery, radiology, physio and many other things to go through.  I'm still very scared becaue of the C word and I keep trying to remind myself because it's early it's treatable.  It doesn't always work but does sometimes help.

Next Monday I will be seeing the surgeon and have pre-op assessments done.  My CNS tells me the surgery will be in Kendal and in January.  I'm extremely scare of this as I am needle and invasive treatment phobic but I have to do it, no options.

The Radiology I will have to go all the way to Preston for and is likely to be about 15 sessions - one a day Monday to Friday for 3 weeks!!!  Parking there is horrendous so we are going to try and use the trains and then taxi from the station to the hospital. I just hope they do run.  Being us we will always get a train at least 2 ahead of the time we need as I'd rather be there super early than panic I'm not going to make it.  It is not good that we have 3 nearby hospitals, Kendal, Lancaster and Barrow that we have to go all the way to Preston.  That stretch of the M6 always seems to have accidents on it.  Anyway that won't be happening until around March time I think.

I will try and come on here daily if I can manage it, but please forgive me if I miss any.  I will try to look at your blips too but can't promise anything right now.

Do take care everyone and I hope I will see you all tomorrow.