Over the Hills and Far Away

I had my second appointment with the mental health doctor today. 

I was worried that I might not be able to convince them i was not quite right, but when I told her I had handed in my notice, she looked considerably horrified.   

I told her she had said I was to recognise what was halting my recovery, and knowing I had to go back to that place was the issue. So I removed it.  She seemed a lot more positive  once I had explained my thinking. 

But then I had the awfulness of how to deal with the handover and maybe having to work my notice. 

She said she really couldn't help me with that, I'd have to speak to someone in the office about i t.  So I message the Big Boss and asked if he would meet me for coffeee.   I then messaged my pal to let her know i was going to meet with him.  Guess who was sitting at her machine?   Yeah, the other boss. 

He went straight up and asked the Big Boss about it.   Big Boss blew him off. 

I explained my panic attacks to him, and he said I didn't have to come back to the office.  he said I could do the handover remotely and I didn't need to come in at all.  

He also said the other one was on holiday in two weeks, so I could come in then and empty my drawers but also.... "speak to the new boss because he was sure I would like him ..... and then maybe I would reconsider". 

I told him no, i wouldn't reconsider.  I told him I oculdn't work for them any more - everyone knew what was going  on and no one did anything.  

I left quite happy that I said my piece and satisfied that I could empty my own drawers in a couple of weeks, in peace without harassment. 

(and I got a line until February :D