intothehills

By intothehills

Endings

Mostly a journal entry. 

A messy sort of day. 
After 13 years I formally stepped down from a (stunningly) part time technical advisor role for the Climbing Wall Manufacturers Association. I've been advising them to wind it up for the last 5 years, but the last three members want to continue. I haven't the time anymore and I don't feel hugely connected to that world. They got me a nice bottle of scotch.

After 12 years of being the Lake District Regional Rep (volunteer) for the Mountain Training Association, literally the first person to run Night Nav workshops (they now run dozens across the UK and a lot of those Regional Reps give out my handouts) I resigned last week... I've done it for a long time for little thanks from MTA, though I've met a lot of lovely people. But again I need/deserve the time back. So far I've not even had an acknowledgement, but today I saw them advertising for my replacement. Sometimes the universe tells you you've made the right call lol.

And yet more medical tests today... Followed by a new 10km pb on the Cross trainer. I feel fantastic (physically) I haven't been in this sort of shape in a decade. I'm thinking of just walking away from the tests, ultimately numbers are based on averages and I'm not average lol. They're constantly inconclusive, some of the (next) suggested tests are invasive and, honestly, hurt a lot last year despite anaesthetic. The awful original symptoms have gone and I'm not sure I any longer want to know, I think the stress and upset they cause is possibly worse, and I don't (personally, it's a choice) believe/want excessive measures to prolong a quality of life I might not want. 

None of that led to a blip. 
And then the sky did this. Taken from a lay by on the A66, looking across the M6. 

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