In the Oakwood (again)

Chris Stein said today that spending 15 minutes in an ancient woodland is meant to be very calming. So I headed for our local one. Actually this picture looks the way my brain feels just now. All over the place. Because I have bipolar disorder and am now completely off the ‘mood stabiliser,’ lithium, my mind is racing. They call it ‘hypomania.’ (Pure mania is when you go shopping, buy three fridges and a stuffed giraffe, spending your life savings in an hour.) I know enough about this to know that it is not good and that it will probably end in a total mood crash. So I’m trying to damp it down as best as I can. In many ways I think this is worse than depression, because it can spiral out of control. The only time I went completely manic I ended up in a psychiatric ward. What I don’t want is another pill, so  I plan to manage it as best I can. Wish me luck.