Balancing

It was an early start for me, woke up at 7.10am after only 3hrs of sleep. Headed out for a coffee with my book but was restless and things were going round and round my head.

Spent a few hours with friends late morning /early afternoon; a friend from down south is home for the weekend with her 3month old. A nice time spent catching up and getting cuddles.
It was a welcome distraction from my thoughts.

After I left my friends I went along to Portobello for some fresh air and a walk. Felt really panicky and hated being in amongst a lot of people so didn't last long. Have ended up with the pain in my chest back again tonight and am really aware that my breathing is quite shallow.
Came home via the shops where I picked up a notebook; on counsellors suggestion I am going to keep a record of how I'm feeling/thinking and can take it along with me to discuss issues. Maybe I'll then write less here and not bore you all.
Even in a room full of people you can still feel alone.