Not for sale

It was a hard day today. my biggest fear happened to me.... i was at my internship. and we had a man who was on the list to go to an hospice to die. he had cancer all over in the stumach, lungs etc. He also had alot of fluid in his lungs which got really worse today. i found it a bit scary.
i started at 7 and ended at 15:30.
at 14:00 the guy pressed the alarmbuttom so i went to the room. he made something clear to me, doesnt matter what, and i helped him. afterwards his eyes were rolling and he turned blue.. i rushed to get an colleague and she told me to get the family in the room. i did. then i went back to my other colleagues and just bursted into tears. ive always been afraid of the death. and now it was happening in front of me. the family had peace with it because he didnt want to live anymore.
at 14:30 he passed away. the family came to me and wanted to know what he said to me. i couldnt say one word without crying. it was terrible. i was sooo shocked!
they later on ever asked me if i was okay... that is terrible!!! i should be asking them!!

enough about that. after my internship i went to the carnaval with Daisy. we saw this in an shopwindow... a real dog. so cute!!