went to a wedding today for two people i've never met, which is something i have never done before. lets be clear, although it was great fun and i was proud of how well i dressed myself up, i do not look forward to doing this again any time soon. weddings bring up all sorts of memories and emotions, dreams and wishes that normally you keep at bay... songs that you wouldn't usually listen to blast through the dance hall and suddenly you're left feeling more lonely than any twenty something kid should. i don't like feeling that way, and i certainly don't like when someone who doesn't know me tries to make it better. i guess i'm not as open as i seem.