Nineteenth Birthday!

My nineteenth birthday. Yes Bethan and I look battered, we were, we put on our pajamas and cuddled, watching house.

I had such a lovely birthday, but I miss it already and I miss the way I didn't have to go, like I normally do. Loved spending it with Bethan though, I lay around in my boxers and a shirt drinking tea with her doing the same, we didn't try, for why would we need to.

I am a bit worried, but that's just my brain, not about anything in particular so much as losing the things that make my body function, losing my last hopes.

Can you see that I am the protector, of the most dangerous girl in the world? That is how much I give her.
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Toothpaste kisses, and lines. Lay with me, i'll lay with you, we'll do the things that lovers do. Put the stars in our eyes, and with heart shaped bruises, and late night kisses, divine.