Happy.

Buzzing. I cannot wait for Friday i'm listening to a song that is making me want to dance around my bedroom. So I am! I am absolutely ecstatic. Sorted a gram of bubble for myself for Friday to block out all the people sleeping with eachother and getting tired. I'll be dancing around the garden, chewing my mouth, singing this song amongst many others, watching their worlds crumble down while mine crumbles, well, slower.

I'm going to danielle's tomorrow to see her and make her happy she seems so sad so I'm going to make sure she has a lovely night. She's also my dealer now, so cheap drugs for me because I pay people in banter :P

I am so excited, I had a shitty day but this song and the prospect of friday has cheered me right up, I'm so so game to lose my head, so game, I wish I could invite you all!

I'm going to carry Hannah around on my back and make her feel good, make her feel alive, and we'll dance and sing and nothing will matter. time to drown in drugs and alcohol and blame myself the next morning, I have no regrets. no cleaning to do on saturday, and Bethan'll be there raving around with me until she inevitably ends up in bed with someone, not sure whether to share the bubble at all, I might just keep it tightly locked in my bra, safe for my snout only, bacci and sniff and my vodka, sorted.

I am so, so excited.